I had been talking to Kendall and she informed me of her sister, her twin sister Kinnery. Who is also 17yrs old. I asked if Kinnery wouldn't mind sharing her story of loss and a blessing. Also, the story of Marcia, 17yrs old, and her secret.
Kinnery's Story
Hi my name Is Kinnery! I am 17 years old and not only a teen mommy but also an angel mommy!
When I was 15 years old my now fiance and I were dating. We had been together for 2 years. It was the first time I had ever had sex. We were in love.... Heat of the moment, no condom. Of course!! Unsmart me! This was in July. I took several tests. Every single one came out with that cute devilish little pink plus sign.... My world sank. My sister was supposed to be the disappointment child not me!!! Sorry ken:) she was the first person I told... She already had Teagan and the twins... I remember she was sitting in Aspens room rocking her to sleep at 10:37pm all I said was "sis, I'm pregnant" we both cried... For hours. When we were done, we Freud some more!!!! I told my parents. They were surprisingly cool about it. After that I got exited. I went to the doctor and everything checked out great!! I was due to have my own little pink plus sign on April 19th. On march 11, I started bleeding really bad so I rushed to the ER. My baby girl had died. That's when my heart really sank. I was after the 6 month mark so they declared her still born. I gave birth that night. 3 lbs 6ozs 16in long. Carolina Grace. She was perfect. She was beautiful. I held her. I didn't let her go. I didn't let the doctors touch her. She was mine. All I could do was stare at my baby girl. She was cold and a tinge of purple. I thought... That's supposed to be her favorite color, she's not supposed to be that color! It wasn't fair! My baby had died.
On July 16, 2010 I gave birth to Jersey Maine. He was perfect. Pink little lips. His tiny hand wrapped around mine.... He had a heart beat. He would never be her replacement but he was mine too. Above his crib is HIS picture of his big sister. That's his NaNa. He says night night to her every night. He tells her he loves her. I think he does. I think she sent him to me.
I love you Carolina Grace. You are my angel.
~Kinnery <3
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When I was 15 years old my now fiance and I were dating. We had been together for 2 years. It was the first time I had ever had sex. We were in love.... Heat of the moment, no condom. Of course!! Unsmart me! This was in July. I took several tests. Every single one came out with that cute devilish little pink plus sign.... My world sank. My sister was supposed to be the disappointment child not me!!! Sorry ken:) she was the first person I told... She already had Teagan and the twins... I remember she was sitting in Aspens room rocking her to sleep at 10:37pm all I said was "sis, I'm pregnant" we both cried... For hours. When we were done, we Freud some more!!!! I told my parents. They were surprisingly cool about it. After that I got exited. I went to the doctor and everything checked out great!! I was due to have my own little pink plus sign on April 19th. On march 11, I started bleeding really bad so I rushed to the ER. My baby girl had died. That's when my heart really sank. I was after the 6 month mark so they declared her still born. I gave birth that night. 3 lbs 6ozs 16in long. Carolina Grace. She was perfect. She was beautiful. I held her. I didn't let her go. I didn't let the doctors touch her. She was mine. All I could do was stare at my baby girl. She was cold and a tinge of purple. I thought... That's supposed to be her favorite color, she's not supposed to be that color! It wasn't fair! My baby had died.
On July 16, 2010 I gave birth to Jersey Maine. He was perfect. Pink little lips. His tiny hand wrapped around mine.... He had a heart beat. He would never be her replacement but he was mine too. Above his crib is HIS picture of his big sister. That's his NaNa. He says night night to her every night. He tells her he loves her. I think he does. I think she sent him to me.
I love you Carolina Grace. You are my angel.
~Kinnery <3
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Marcia's Story
I was in the train too. For 5
months I was. It was the summer before my freshman year. I was dying to
loose my virginity. So I did. They were all there. They know about that.
But what they don't know is that I was pregnant. When my dad found out,
I got grounded for 3 months. He made me get all those fun STD and
pregnancy tests done. I passes all but one. The most important one. It
was positive. I was pregnant. I told them that the appointment went
good. They never asked if I was pregnant. Well I was. I was only 14yrs old and I was 5 months
along when baby Riley died. I just pretended to be sick for a few days. I
was really in the hospital. It was the worst feeling ever. I hated it
and I hate that they don't know.
<3 Riley Jacob
Do you regret not telling anyone? Would you tell them now?
I do regret it. I know that all my friends would have accepted me. Somedays I feel like he died cause I hid him.
What would you like to tell girls that are going through the same?
I would tell girls to just open up. Only your true friends would support you and love you.
~Marcia <3_
<3 Riley Jacob
Do you regret not telling anyone? Would you tell them now?
I do regret it. I know that all my friends would have accepted me. Somedays I feel like he died cause I hid him.
What would you like to tell girls that are going through the same?
I would tell girls to just open up. Only your true friends would support you and love you.
~Marcia <3_