Some people make losing your child seem like some sort of disease or flu. It's
not something that in a few days, I'm going to be okay. I'm going to feel much
better. I know I am strong, people say it all the time because I hold myself
together. I get through the day like nothing happened and everythings fine. But
on the inside I am dying and screaming my heart out for some peace, for my
child, for just one day. When a girl says "I'm okay" or gives a sarcastic "I'm awseome"
It's always more to it. But go ahead, pretend everythings okay because you know
what? I'll tell you everythings okay.

Raven had her baby girl a couple days ago! You have read her story from when she found out until now. So I'm so happy for her. Another friend of mind had her baby girl on the same day so congrates to both of them and good luck on their journey into motherhood!!!!

Today, as I am writing this...I'm crying my eyes out. It hurts like hell and I miss them so much...

Happy New Year to all!!! 2012 is a bgig yr for me. I'm graduating high school!!! So exciting but my news years resolution is to finish writing my book. Which I'm working on two seperate books so this should be fun. One is for teens who have experienced pregnany/child loss and the other is just for fun, a love story sort of thing. My friend convince I should write a book because of my poetic way of writing what I feel and my heart put it into a love story that teaches you about love and heart break so that's a challenge because I know heart break first hand. The book for teens is even harder for me because I am struggling to put my thoughts on paper. It's still a hard subject for me at times, especially this time of the yr. Yet, I'm determined and it's going to get done along with college apps and my portfolio for design school. I hope everyone had an awesome New Years Eve until the countdown to New Year. Remember only you can complete you news years resolution so stay determined, stay strong, and don't let others fool you!